Maybe This Will Save Me: A Memoir of Art, Addiction, and Transformation Zibby Media Zibby Owens

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Maybe This Will Save Me: A Memoir of Art, Addiction, and Transformation

Name: Maybe This Will Save Me: A Memoir of Art, Addiction, and Transformation
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*NATIONAL BESTSELLER*
*An Autostraddle Most Anticipated Queer Book*

"I'm determined to get to know the real Tommy, to trace the shape of my scars."

For years, Tommy Dorfman turned her back on her thoughts and emotions, hoping they'd simply go away.

After a lifetime of confusion, she finally gained clarity around her gender and began to transition.

But there were still parts of herself she'd locked away, elements of her story that she needed, for the first time, to fully confront.

She sought guidance in a tarot deck.

Maybe This Will Save Me is Tommy's story, told the cards of that tarot pull. For the first time, she opens up about:

growing up the youngest of five children while grappling with her identity
the turbulent she spent as a teenager, numbed by drugs and alcohol
her early aspirations of stardom and the hard fought path she forged to get there
the long night that led her to finally seek treatment for addiction
her breakout role in 13 Reason Why
the relationships that shaped her

Maybe This Will Save Me is a luminously written, bracingly honest, and structurally audacious memoir of an artist whose vision transcends mediums.

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From filmmaker, writer, producer, and actor Tommy Dorfman--currently starring in Broadway's Romeo + Juliet--comes a beautifully written, bracingly original memoir, structured through the profound revelations of a single tarot card reading, chronicling her troubled teen years, the highs and lows of her creative career, and her journey to self-acceptance

On a hot summer day, twenty-eight-year-old Tommy Dorfman was enjoying a beautiful outing on a boat. But inside she felt unmoored. After a lifetime of confusion, she'd finally gained clarity around her gender and had begun to transition. But there were still parts of herself she'd locked away, elements of her story that she needed, for the first time, to fully confront. She sought guidance in a tarot deck, using it as a tool to make sense of her life up until that point.

Maybe This Will Save Me, Dorfman's spellbinding debut memoir, is structured through the cards of that tarot pull. The youngest of five children, she grappled with her own identity from an early age and spent her teenage years numbed by drugs and alcohol. At the same time, she harbored dreams of creative stardom and a desire to make herself seen. But the path, at times, had felt impossible.

Charting her early struggles in theater, her rise to fame in 13 Reasons Why, her hard-fought journey to sobriety, and the relationships that shaped her, Dorfman's luminously written, bracingly honest memoir reintroduces us to a writer who stands alongside Michelle Zauner, Jennette McCurdy, and Maggie Nelson in her visionary scope and craft.